Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Aubade (or to try and thank someone)

I wanted things to be simple like a sunrise... but that's not the way life is... it's not simple... for if it was I wouldn't have to write what I write... and that's the biggest truth... that all the bullshi* writing and philosophising won't bring back those times of regret and those moments that matter... and that yes... yes... I regret... and all those people who say that they don't regret are full of bullshi*... everyone regrets... otherwise they never really cared for anything other than themselves to begin with... and why won't some people just write and regret... why isn't it just that simple... you're a... ah... ah... never mind... never mind... like how it never rains when you want it to... like it doesn't snow on your sizzling desert... it's only a beautiful sunrise... wishing I was home... wishing I wasn't full of regret... like us all... like sunset.

1 comment:

Nikky said...

Simplicity depends on your perspective. A sunrise looks simple to us because it comes up everyday without fail if you think on the astronomy side of things or why it moves that when it stops being simple.

If you think onto the "why" and/or "how" of anything it stops being simple. I may think a snail, hermt crab or a hermit have simple exsistances but if I really looked at how they live and why they do what they do and ask myself if I could do it, if the answer is 'no' then it can't be that simple.

At least that's what I think. I miss our discussions, even if they were most often frivolous on my end.